So you heard those terrifying words “your child needs surgery.” Now, there are some surgeries that are definitely more serious than others, but surgery is serious in and of itself. We were told that our child would need surgery and it was one of the scariest thing I have ever been told. A million things ran through my head and I all I wanted was for this not to happen. I didn’t want to put my son through surgery and recovery. I was terrified. I spent months praying and the days leading up to it were torturous. I knew it was necessary but I didn’t want him to go through it. If you heard those words, you probably felt the same way. But I’m here to give you some encouragement.
The best thing you could do for you child is pray and be strong. They need you. Michael needed me to make everything normal and okay. The day of surgery, I was beyond nervous and completely terrified. I held my son completely scared of the outcome, even though it was minor surgery. I watched as he played and took in every moment. I hugged him a little tighter and told him I loved him. I dressed in a gown and carried him into the OR. I held him as they prepped him and tried to comfort him through tears as they placed the mask on his face. It was the worst thing I’ve ever had to experience. But I did it, because he needed me. I pushed aside all my emotions to be brave for him. The second I was able to go to him afterwards, I was there. I held him and held him and held him. I didn’t want to let him go.
The doctors and nurses kept reminding me that he won’t remember any of it. That it would be harder on me that it would be on him. They were right. As a mother, it is so hard to watch your child go through something you can’t fix. When these times come, the best solution is to cling to God. Trust in Him that He will watch over your child, that He would steady the doctor’s hands and give you peace. That was the best comfort. Knowing God was watching over Michael gave me ease through the fear. My piece of advice for you moms is, trust God and bring your support team. Aside from my husband, I had my mom and my mother and father-in-law there to comfort, pray and wait with. They were there to sit in silence, to talk about Michael, to worry with and to give a hug. This thing called motherhood, is filled with ups and downs. Filled with joy and fear. But regardless of what we feel, we push everything aside to be there for our children. They need us and we will be there.