Before I was a Mom

before-i-was-a-momBefore I was a mom, I got to stay up as late as I wanted and I got to sleep in as late as I wanted. I was able to go to the bathroom without an audience. I didn’t have to hide while I ate a cookie and I could walk across the room without toys on the floor. Before I was a mom, I had never been puked on, peed on, chewed on or pooped on. I never had to hold down a crying baby for tests or watch doctors put my child to sleep for surgery. Before I was a mom, I didn’t have to wonder if there would be a tantrum in the grocery store. I didn’t have to worry about being home in time for naps.

Before I was a mom, I didn’t cry so easily. I never knew how much a dimpled smile could make my heart so happy. I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn’t want to put him down or stayed up late at night just to watch him sleep. Before I was a mom, I never knew my heart could break so easily when I can’t simply “fix it.” Before I was a mom, I never knew how someone so little could effect my life so much. I never knew how someone so little could hold such a big part of my heart. Before I was a mom, I didn’t know how I could love someone so much. Before I was a mom, I didn’t know just how much I would love being a mom.